Clearly, I have fallen off the wagon. Again.

  I would like to sit here and say that I am about to jump back on the wagon.  But it seems like everytime I promise myself that lately, I fail.  Horribly.  I don't even know how much of a gain-back I have right now.  I should go look...

  I have gained back all but 13.4 of the 36 (I think.  Maybe it was 38) lbs I had lost.  That is dissapointing.  Somehow, I am still managing to do ok when I put on pants that are 2 sizes down from where I was when I started, so at least I haven't gained all of my butt back.  =D  I do need to get back on the wagon.  I was getting so close to 50 lbs gone, and now I'm almost back to square one.  That just sucks.

  I have been going out ALOT lately.  Drinks.  Eating out.  You name it.  I currently cannot afford to do that, at least until payday.  Maybe I can use the next week and a half until I have money to focus on getting re-centered.  I haven't been doing well at home or away from home.  I need to regain control!

I Am... The Bad And The Good

I Am...

- a junk food junkie.
- a popaholic.
- fat.
-a dork.
- not getting enough exercise.
- a gainer. As in, I gained back some of what I had lost.
- nothing special to most.

I Am...
- starting Spark People all the way over.
- going to get back on track.
- loved.
- fun.
- living an awesome rocker chick life.
- dedicated when I believe in something.
- going to make positive changes.
- going to get motivated. Really, really motivated.
- something special to those who count. And there are alot of people who count.
- really truly happy with my life these days.